Do you ever feel like you were going full speed ahead toward the light at the end of the tunnel for a while; and then when you get to that light, you come out of the tunnel, not knowing what to do next? Well, this is how I felt last week. This entire summer, I had been turning down pool time with friends and other weekday activities so that I can focus on completing my 300-hour Advanced Yoga Teacher Training (AYTT). Last week, I found myself trying to fill my schedule with back to back things because that’s what I had gotten used to doing prior to graduating from the AYTT program. I took on two more weekly vitual classes, and I got busy with researching for and booking our upcoming family vacation in December. I also started catching up on some FaceTime chats with friends, took time to read a book, take a walk around the neighborhood, and taught a couple of virtual meditation classes for a healthcare company in North Carolina. By the end of the week, I felt exhausted!
It is in my nature to just go, go, go. It is also in my nature to be extremely lazy. I tend to be an extremist, so balance is something I’m constantly working on. So to create more self-awareness and balance in my life, I do what I always do: I spent more time in meditation, prayer, and looking over at my bookshelves. On my left bookshelf, I have my Christian Faith books as well as books on natural health, nutrition and fitness; on my right bookshelf, I have my yoga-related books which includes books on asanas (physical postures), meditation, and yoga philosophy as well as books on neuroscience and energy science. Whenever I start to feel an imbalance coming on, I usually pick up one (or more) of these books and read either the entire book or use it as a reference to help inspire or ignite something in me that helps me feel refreshed. Anyway, I had been glancing at my book on Enneagrams for several days, so I finally went online and took a quiz. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised, but my Enneagram Type is Four, “The Individualist.” It was really interesting how accurate it was, but the struggles of a Type Four were humbling. According to Enneagram Institute, Type Fours feel different from everyone (that’s me), and they struggle with the fear of having no identity or personal significance (also me). There are many other accurate things on that list, but I am grateful that through my faith and my purpose in life (which I discovered during my journey in Yoga and Meditation), I don’t struggle as much with other things on the list such as low self-esteem and negative self-image. Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle from time to time with my physical appearance just like anyone, but I have — for the most part — learned to accept and love the way that God has created me.
It is so important to take time out for self-assessment. More than ever, it is so important that we stay connected with how we feel, what we think, and who we truly are.
What’s your Enneagram Type? I’d love to hear from you!